I just started doing some house-sitting today. The couple has moved to Kentucky for 3 months and asked me if I would like to stay in their house. They're not paying me, but I'm kinda glad to be out of my parents house for a while. Not that I don't like living there, but I just get tired of being the 3rd (or 5th) wheel, a burden, a drain, a nuisance, etc.
I was a bit scared to move there, though. I don't know why. I guess because it wasn't a planned thing. I'm not packing all of my stuff and moving it over in one day, and I'm probably not staying there every night. I don't know what that schedule will look like. I don't know if my mom will be relieved or insulted that I've decided to stay somewhere else for a while. I can never really tell with her.
I'm just so ready for permanency!!!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Revelations on Twilight
I was watching Twilight Friday night with some amazing girls, and it was awesome. I had read the first two books, but not seen the movie until it came out on dvd. And though these books and movies are completely dangerous and not at all uplifting for a girl to see (another rant for another time), we watched it anyway.
There's a part in the movie where Bella totally freaks out because Edward is telling her that the right thing to do would be to leave her and never see her again. And even though at this point she knows he's a vampire, and could kill her at any moment, her fear comes from losing him. This part of the analogy doesn't have to do with anything, but it just kinda shows how much Bella is in love with him. It's like how our relationship with Christ is supposed to be. We should be so in love with Christ that we don't care what happens to us, or what other people think. But 'not caring' doesn't even come close. When Edward hints that he may leave, for her sake, she is so in love with him that she starts panicking...hyperventilating even. He is her air. Her possibility of being killed is the least of her worries; now that Edward is in her life, nothing else matters.
Another part we liked was when Edward says to a worried Bella, "You are my life now." Nothing in his life before he met Bella gave him meaning until he met her, and she now she consumes him. His (and her) life is drastically different now that they are together.
LORD, help me to live every moment consumed by you. You are my life now.
There's a part in the movie where Bella totally freaks out because Edward is telling her that the right thing to do would be to leave her and never see her again. And even though at this point she knows he's a vampire, and could kill her at any moment, her fear comes from losing him. This part of the analogy doesn't have to do with anything, but it just kinda shows how much Bella is in love with him. It's like how our relationship with Christ is supposed to be. We should be so in love with Christ that we don't care what happens to us, or what other people think. But 'not caring' doesn't even come close. When Edward hints that he may leave, for her sake, she is so in love with him that she starts panicking...hyperventilating even. He is her air. Her possibility of being killed is the least of her worries; now that Edward is in her life, nothing else matters.
Another part we liked was when Edward says to a worried Bella, "You are my life now." Nothing in his life before he met Bella gave him meaning until he met her, and she now she consumes him. His (and her) life is drastically different now that they are together.
LORD, help me to live every moment consumed by you. You are my life now.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Numba 1 blawgah
This blog is for my life in the gaps. I'm not writing this for anyone, but if you stumble upon this blog then I hope it might bless you in some way. Or at least make you think. Or feel nauseous. I don't know.
I feel like my life is on pause, and the remote is stuck so I can't press play. I'm so afraid that time is gonna keep running and will eventually just shut off my life and eject the tape. And once I take out that tape and look at it, I'll realize that it's not an original movie, but one of those blank tapes with a television rerun on it. Ok I gotta stop with the 90's VCR metaphor.
But why did I press pause in the first place?
Because I'm not one to spontaneously jump into things (except for the spontaneous beach trip when I lived in Mobile. But that's not that wild and crazy). I sit silently, praying, thinking, thinking, and praying, before I decide anything. Only, once I had silently prayed and thought things over, there was no where to jump.
And that's it. That's where I am. Right now. Kinda sucks, right?
However, I am thankful for you friends who have not judged me in this process (though I'm sure you've thought some things. I'm just glad you didn't tell me what you were/are thinking).
I feel like my life is on pause, and the remote is stuck so I can't press play. I'm so afraid that time is gonna keep running and will eventually just shut off my life and eject the tape. And once I take out that tape and look at it, I'll realize that it's not an original movie, but one of those blank tapes with a television rerun on it. Ok I gotta stop with the 90's VCR metaphor.
But why did I press pause in the first place?
Because I'm not one to spontaneously jump into things (except for the spontaneous beach trip when I lived in Mobile. But that's not that wild and crazy). I sit silently, praying, thinking, thinking, and praying, before I decide anything. Only, once I had silently prayed and thought things over, there was no where to jump.
And that's it. That's where I am. Right now. Kinda sucks, right?
However, I am thankful for you friends who have not judged me in this process (though I'm sure you've thought some things. I'm just glad you didn't tell me what you were/are thinking).
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