This blog is for my life in the gaps. I'm not writing this for anyone, but if you stumble upon this blog then I hope it might bless you in some way. Or at least make you think. Or feel nauseous. I don't know.
I feel like my life is on pause, and the remote is stuck so I can't press play. I'm so afraid that time is gonna keep running and will eventually just shut off my life and eject the tape. And once I take out that tape and look at it, I'll realize that it's not an original movie, but one of those blank tapes with a television rerun on it. Ok I gotta stop with the 90's VCR metaphor.
But why did I press pause in the first place?
Because I'm not one to spontaneously jump into things (except for the spontaneous beach trip when I lived in Mobile. But that's not that wild and crazy). I sit silently, praying, thinking, thinking, and praying, before I decide anything. Only, once I had silently prayed and thought things over, there was no where to jump.
And that's it. That's where I am. Right now. Kinda sucks, right?
However, I am thankful for you friends who have not judged me in this process (though I'm sure you've thought some things. I'm just glad you didn't tell me what you were/are thinking).
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